Playing computer games - A true luxury?

Some people had this misconception that I enjoyed my Teaching Fellowship at NUMed so much because I had so much free time to play computer games. Is that really the truth?

In reality, the part where I had a lot of free time to play computer games was one of the worst parts of my Teaching Fellowship. At that time, the very bad Covid situation in Malaysia resulted in the cancellation of most teaching sessions at NUMed. Some teaching sessions were moved online, others had to be outright cancelled. That was how I got all the free time.

During my Teaching Fellowship, I actually liked being busy and hated having lots of free time, which is in total contrast to during my House Officer training and Medical Officer post. I always wanted to deliver as many teaching sessions as possible. Every time a teaching session got cancelled due to Covid, I would get so upset. I never felt stressed about the occasionally busy work schedules, the only thing that made me stressed was the constant possibility that a teaching session would get cancelled.

Getting to be a Teaching Fellow is surely one of the best things to have happened in my life. But it's unfortunate that my Teaching Fellowship got ruined by the Covid pandemic. I never got to experience it fully because of that. This is what makes me want to pursue Medical Education even more.

Now, as a Medical Officer working at Klinik Kesihatan Sundar, I too have a lot of free time to play computer games every day, especially after I finished taking my MRCP Part 1 exams. If all I want is to have free time to play computer games every day, I can simply continue working this job. But this isn't what I want. For sure, I am not happy now.

Playing computer games is fun, that's why I do it every day now. It's a great way to spend my free time and de-stress myself. But in the end, it's just a hobby. That alone doesn't give me true happiness. I can only be truly happy when I get to dedicate my life to something I truly love, in Medical Education.

I pray that I will get to pursue Medical Education real soon. I promise, there will be no "adjustment period" this time, there will only be my fullest enthusiasm right from the 1st second.